FedEx Express May 20th 2005

I can remember this day as if it were yesterday. I liken the experience to conception except however during International Adoption conception, all physical, conscious and emotional impulses are happening in the acute stage of now as opposed to subtle biological conception which takes place quietly from within.
This morning started out much like the morning before except the Young family knew before days end we would be taking a huge leap of faith. We prayed together that morning during breakfast that God would be with us on our journey to baby 749. We prayed that trusting Orson Mozes was the right thing to do. We prayed for baby 749 that she could feel us wanting and loving her from afar. We began talking about her as though she had been here from the beginning.
So after Chris and Christopher left for work and school it was my job to go to the bank and get the check we needed to adopt our daughter.
I prayed all day that we were making the right decision. I vacillated between being thrilled our adoption journey was beginning and nervous about the impact having another child in our lives would have. A gamut of thoughts continued throughout the day as I played each scenario I could conceive of in my conscious brain . The what ifs of taking a chance with your heart and the heart of the son you adore.
The plan is, I pick Christopher up at school and Dad will meet us at Fed Ex to say one more prayer together and one last chance to talk about any uncertainty before we send the contract and bank check.
Our timing this day was perfect as we managed to arrive at the Fed Ex building parking lot at the exact same time. Dad jumps into the car and we are all smiling simultaneously. There is no question as to what we all want to do. We take a vote and it is unanimous. We all place our hands on the fed ex envelope and again ask God to protect and guide us on this journey. We all discuss again the fact that what we are doing is a risk. However we conclude, this is what life is all about RISKS.
We seal the envelope and all of us accompany it to the Fed Ex counter. The lady behind the counter is unaware of the precious dream she holds in her hand.She places the envelope on the scale, checks the label, prints off the receipt and tells us to have a good day.
We walk out of Fed Ex and sprint to the car. We are laughing and hugging and hurried. Dad asks "hey where you guys going so fast"? We tell him home. Dad asks "why so fast"? Dad, Orson said once we send him the tracking number on our Fed Ex within 15 minutes he would take baby 749 off the photo listing. We have to get to the computer ASAP.
Christopher and I are giddy in the car all the way home. We run into the house and boot up the computer. We email Orson our tracking number and we wait, pacing the computer room much like an expectant family waiting for the news. We are watching the clock and 15 minutes seems like 15 days. When the time finally lapses we check our email and find from Orson, more referral photos and the medical card of "your child". We then look at the Adopting.com web sight and find Orson has been true to his word. Baby 749 is not there. Orson has firmly placed her into our hearts and lives.